•{adolecent_love}•

I got a new screen name thing. Adolescent_love (see the connection) lol.
This name was getting way unorganized and out of hand so I made a new one and its all better =•]
So ya go add that one. NOW please (lol)
Ill probably send out a message too, incase you don't get this.

I HAD THE WORST DREAM LAST NIGHTTTT. T__T
So I was in my backyard sitting on my trampoline (which we dont even have anymore) and I was watching my uncle park his dump truck. He lives next door, and he owns a paving company so he has a big garage and a bunch of trucks wayy back in our driveway.
So the William Beckett (The Academy Is...) was there and my uncle ran him over. I was like "BILVY NOOOOOOO" and then I was like 'omg I have to post this on livejournal, bill just died in my backyard and I'm the only one who knows D=' Then I woke up and I was crying...
Then I fell back asleep and I had this really wierd dream about my cousin (neighbors) dog attacking me, and my brother giving me a bag of chocolate covered goldfish...
(the food goldfish not actual fish)

So ya...


So for the LOST fic (that's what I'm gonna call it untill I give it a title).
All of panic is there so far (in the 5 paragraphs I have). I plan on putting some people from fall out boy, paramore, the hush sound, cobra starship, the academy is... And maybe all time low and/or a few other bands, if I think of any.

Ok I'm going to go write more. I'll update again later.

Pee Ess
If you have any ideas for strange phenomenons that could happen on a strange deserted island, comment!!!

OMG
I just turned on TRL (i know i have like never watched it before and now 2 days in a row) and it said 'NEW BAND WE THE KINGS' (theyre not that new are they?) and TOKIO HOTEL FOR THE FIRST TIME ON TV IN AMERICA. LIKE OMFG AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I LOVE TOKIO HOTEL (sorta)
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WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
America is going to KILL tokio hotel T__T
They'll end up like FOB D:
-Yes i love FOB but they are sell outs :(-\
AHHH SO MANY SAD FACES
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Ok i have to go get ready for dance.
BTW i started the LOST fic last night. I only have like 2 paragraphs though, it was late.

OMG OMG OMG
I was watching trl cuz i heard like all of FBR/DecayDance peeps were gonna be there and i just turned it on and i was watching it and i realized that like everybody was hiding in the audience!!!

And when did bilvy get a haircut?





I might post later but im trying to write some slash fics so...

Im watching LOST right now. Truthfully, its kinda boring. It IS a good show but it just doesnt really hook me anymore. Grays anatomy was good though. Hans and Kallie (sp?) are DEFINETLY a lesbian couple, even though at the end Kallie ran off to have sex with Karev. I probably spelled all of their names wrong but whatever.

Sitting here watching lost I have my notebook and a pencil sitting I'm front of me waiting to be used, but I dont really have any great ideas. I really, REALLY wanna write a a chaptered fix with like EVERYBODY in it but my two ideas were ideas were for a gang or a vampire fic but those are already taken (maybe I'll write one about vampire gangs???).
I also had an idea where one man sees another man in a dream, then in real life and goes out on a search to find him. (yes I have had this idea for a long time I just haven't really done anything about it)
My last idea is going to be in a school and both guys are gay but only one has come out and he keeps trying to hold hands and do things in public and the other one gets freaked out. (This sounds sooooo much better in my head, you'll see.)
I dont really know what the pairings will be but for the chaptered one with everybody it will (eventually) just be al the typical pairings. I also really want to write a gabilliam so that'll probably end up being one of them.

OMG
I just watched Fall Out Boy's video for Beat It.

Amazing.

I know a lot of people really dont like Fall Out Boy but
HOOO MIII GAWD

I dont know where Patrick learned to dance like that but he beats Michael Jackson hands down.

AND PETE LICKED HIS BASS!!! I havent seen him do that FOREVER!!! It was awesome!

There was definetly some Peterick going on in that video. It made me a little sweaty XD

So out of 10 I give it an 11. Beat It was already my favorite M.J. song. FOB just made it 10 times better. 13 times better with the video.


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In other news:
Theres a Paramore concert that I was supposed to go to tonight but my stupid DAD wouldnt get tickets so all of my friends are there except me.


My friend C thought I was only claiming to be bi because she is. I proved her wrong. I think...
She said she forgives me and im still her friend but she doesnt trust me just yet.


My aunt went to the hospital because she had low to no pottasium in her body. Shes 8 months pregnant. They said shes not going to make her due date, she'll have to have a c-section earlier, maybe this week. YAY


I had to perform a play in school today. I have major stage fright. Last time I feinted backstage. I did pretty well this time but I was shaking really bad and somebody said I looked really pale. Im glad its over, EXCEPT the teacher that was supposed to be recording it couldnt make the camera work so we have to do it again tommorow. There wont be parents there next time though so it wont be so bad.


I think this is my longest post. Wow.

Where to start?

So um I'll start with frye. Yes, I love him. Yes I also think he's an idiot. He got himself grounded for 2 WEEKS because he forgot to FEED the chickens and put them back in their coop. Now IM being punished cuz HE was an idiot.

So, there's this girl. I really only started talking to her because she was friends with the guy I liked, but now I can't imagine what I'd do without her, and now I've fucked it all up.
I haven't told anybody at my school that I'm bi. I'm afraid of what they'll say because I know my "best friend" is a MAJOR homophobe, and a lot of people that I know are too.
So my friend, Ill call her C just incase anybody finds this, she's bi and she's only told like 5 people. So she was having a really bad day and she was about to give up on the girl she liked, and on love all together. So I was like, C, there's a bunch of people that would go out with you. And then she was begging me to tell her who. And I'm like, Not telling. And I'm not saying they like you but they'd go out with you. (I was talking about myself. I didnt really want her to know I'm bi yet, I just wanted to make her feel better.) So she was asking me all these questions and I was like IM NOT TELLING And she was like , is it you mc? Are you bi? I was like fuck C I dont really know, I'm just so fucking confused right now! (I wasn't so much confused as scared. I dont really wanna be bi because I know how hard its gonna be when I come out)So I continued, I was like, If you tell aybody I'll tell everybody about you. (that's where I fucked up.) Now she doesn't trust me, and she's not exactly talking to me. I haven't seen her in over a week because it was April vacation and I'm really nervous to see her Monday.
Now um the way I feel about her. Its wierd, its different, but its not love, not yet. I love frye, but is it possible to love two people at once?
This sucks.

Anyways, for people out there who actually care about my writing, (if there are any) I'm working on another one. I'm not sure of the pairing yet, but one man has a very R-rated dream about another man, sees him on tv or something (I'm not sure what yet, not that far) and sort of sets out to find him in real life.

So... Ya. Lifes kinda not the best for me now, but everythings gotta get worse before it gets better I guess.

So Ive decided to make this more of a diary then a blog considering it will probably motivate me to write a little more then I do now, and nobody really knows who I am so ya. Theres a lotta stuff thats been happening, but I cant post it now cuz this computers a bitch. Usually I just post from my iPod Touch which is what I'll end up doing later. Post then. BYEE

Ack. Today my friend wrote 'I LOVE GIRLS' in big letters on my hand cuz we were bored during french. Then in math, the substitue was handing out the tests and she was like, 'Is that information on your hand?' I was like 'No just song lyrics and stuff.' and i showed it to her. (There is ALWAYS song lyrics from some song written on my hand. Its usually the song thats stuck in my head.) I had forgot about the 'I LOVE GIRLS' untill the teacher's jaw dropped and she stuttered, 'You-you L-love ...' and she like ran away. I was like WTF LOSER! I hate LOATHE people like that! Im not even lesbian! (well not fully anyways... bi-curious you could say)

ANYWAYSSS. Im working on the sequel to 'The Doves Have Died, The Lovers Have Lied'. If you havent read it yet you should. Find it here. 
Read it. 
Now. 
Please. =+]

I wrote a story. And posted it. And now im super hyper...

READ ITTTTTT.

Go to slash at the disco its there.

Oh the one i beta'd is there too but it was posted a little while a go. (See final chapter of Too Hot to Handle)

I am SO bored.

I beta'd again. WOOHOO! I hope people like the story its pretty good. It hasnt been posted yet, but Ill tell you all when it is.

Ya... my mom got really mad because I talk to Frye on the phone for like an hour everyday and Im using up all the minutes on my phone. Oops... =]

Hmm... what else to talk about...

We got the recomendations from our teachers for which classes they think we should take in High School. I got mostly level 1's which are the most advanced classes (in most cases). It made me all nervous and jittery.

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OK im done for now. More later.

im so sorry ive been gone

So... frye. :)
Here i go.

***My cousins came up from oklahoma and my guy cousin brought his friend. I thought i was gonna be hooked up with some hillbilly (im probably a horrible person for thinking that), but when he walked through the door HALELUJAH!!! I was so in awe i missed my other cousin who came in after him. He turned out to be a great guy, a southern gentlmen you could say. We ended up liking each other, but he was only staying for 2 days.
***When he left i was sad for a little while and i just figured it was over. THEN 3 days after he left he called me. It was short but sweet. Then we talked again on Easter, and i told him WHY I liked him, even though I wasnt to sure he liked me back. Then yesterday we were talking and he told me a list of why he likes me. ! yay !

My first boyfriend. :D

Long time no post!

Well this week has been really um... Emotional I guess. Its a really long story involving a cute boy from Oklahoma named Frye. I don't think I can type it now without competely imploding into the huge empty hole inside of me, so I'll save explaining untill I feel better which might be a little while but I'll try to post it by Friday.

The weirdest thing happened today...
So I sit next to one of my really good friends in french, and she was telling me about how hard she worked at crew (rowing) and how sore she was from working so hard. Then she showed me these huge blisters on her hands... and i had the sudden urge to take her hands in mine and just hold them. I dont know how i really feel about her but its strong, and its different.

Shes bisexual and she always talks about the girl that she likes whos on her hockey team. She thinks shes in love... i think im jealous...

The blood in your veins is 20 below

Hell, the blood in MY veins is 20 below! Its sooo cold. Its actually warmer here then it has been, but still.

I beta'd for the first time yesterday. I guess the person didnt really like my corrections; they only used like 2. I dont really care, it was my first time.

Tonight I have pep-rally for dance. Its this thing where we go to a local highschool and practice our dances (in the cafeteria, its really big) infront of all the other teams. Its TONS of fun; everybody dresses up in their team color and stuff. Its kinda like a HUGE party. =]

Hmm... I guess thats it. I totally trashed the story I was writing. I wrote a poem instead, but I have a new idea for a story. I dunno how it'll work out.

Love Always,
Mary-Catherine

So I sorta figured out what slash is. I get the general idea, but I'm not sure just EXACTLY what of means. I'm writing a story (or trying to at least). Its not nearly as good as some others I've read but its my first. The plots not really good but it popped into my head last week so I wrote about it. I might change my mind and just trash the whole thing. Hmm I dunno. I guess I've sorta figured out what to do, so I won't be needing help anymore (not that I got any in the first place).

What else can I talk about??? My first dance competition is this weekend. I'm really nervous because 1)I feel really unprepared. Our dance teachers sorta shoved the whole dance on us and expected us to have it perfect. 2) I'm competing against my best friend who is AMAZING. Also this girl from a different dance studio told the people at my friends dance studio all this crap about me, so ya.

That was a looong post.

Ok I tried to do stuff, I joined a community even though I don't know what to do with it I like the stuff that's in it. I'm still wondering what slash means, for all I know it could just be part if the name of the community, but I have a feeling its something else. Then again my "feelings" usually end up being a load of shit...

 Um... when i was 10, just because, but my mom showed me where she puts the presents when i was 11, and now she tells me all the things shes getting my brothers.

So Ive heard a lot about this and i wanted to try it but i have no idea how to do anything, can somebody help??